Schizoid Confessions
Hope.
Recovery.
Support.
Falling down and getting back up.

I am broken too, but I hope we can get better together.

DISCLAIMER: I am aware that not everyone with schizophrenia/schizoid disorders has my issues. The posts marked Schizoid Confession #X are simply what I go through day in and day out. Feel free to submit your own if you wish, just keep the numeric order of the confessions.

Random fact: RED is a fantastic band to listen to when you're down, as is Demon Hunter. Check 'em out.

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A message to anyone suffering with a mental illness like me;

breakfast-at-tiff4nys:

“Treat every mental illness like a physical illness. You are not weak. It is not something you can snap out of. People misjudge people with mental illnesses because they are more difficult to understand. But that doesn’t make them any less real, or any less painful. People with mental illnesses are sick, just like people who have diabetes or the flu. Do not be scared of medication. There are those who will tell you that taking your medication is the easy way out. There will be people who tell you that it’s a scam, a lie, a deceitful process; but those are all lies. You wouldn’t tell a diabetic to stop taking their insulin. You wouldn’t stop someone with strep throat from taking their antibiotics. That’s because they are sick, and they need to get better. Just like you. The more you understand that, the healthier and happier you will be.”

- http://www.breakfast-at-tiff4nys.tumblr.com/help/

(Source: blowmelol)

entergalacticfuckery:

vint4ge-wh0re:

pandax33:

beating-ed:

just-that-amazingg:

toescapemyownmind:

Oh my god. This made me cry. Will you really be there for me?

to all my followers<3<3

To everyone & to anyone :) 

i will always be there for my followers, if only they ever hit me up =/
just talk to me :p <33 i will never never ever delete your message <3

come talk to me guys :) ill try my best to help :) i pinky promise :) <3 

I Mean EVERY. SINGLE. PART. Of This! And I Always Will…

entergalacticfuckery:

vint4ge-wh0re:

pandax33:

beating-ed:

just-that-amazingg:

toescapemyownmind:

Oh my god. This made me cry. Will you really be there for me?

to all my followers<3<3

To everyone & to anyone :) 

i will always be there for my followers, if only they ever hit me up =/

just talk to me :p <33 i will never never ever delete your message <3

come talk to me guys :) ill try my best to help :) i pinky promise :) <3 

I Mean EVERY. SINGLE. PART. Of This! And I Always Will…

takesawayourfears:

The other night I was Skyping with one of my best friends. She lives in Holland and I live in America, so we don’t get to talk often. I trust her so much, and every time we talk I just feel so loved. She’s amazing.

I was talking to her about cutting, and started telling her about how I sometimes take pictures of my self-harm instead of writing about it, or in addition to writing about it. I don’t normally show people the pictures, but I sent her a few. She had been sharing her screen with me because I’d been watching her draw something, so I saw when she opened the files.

She opened this picture, kept it on the screen for a few seconds, closed it, and opened it again in Photoshop. I watched, confused, thinking it had been an accident.

I watched quietly while she erased every line of blood, every scar, every cut from my body. I started recording the screen without thinking- I needed to be able to watch it again. I knew I would need to feel that sense of… relief. That there was someone in my life who knew the extent of me and could still see through to something beautiful.

I wanted to share this with you because I think it’s important. If you feel anything close to how I felt when I saw this, I’m happy. Because you should know that it’s possible to be loved, underneath the pain and the scars and the blood. We are all beautiful.

You’re beautiful, and above all, you are not alone.

This is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen on Tumblr. I’m crying so hard right now.

(Source: somefuckergaveoutmyurl)

violetglow:

uh oh 
sounds like me lol

violetglow:

uh oh 

sounds like me lol

closetstories:

blueberryface:

scienceandrollerskates:

Today, I made some calming manatees, but most of them are the wrong size to go on the site.

Oh well. Would you like them?

literally me

This is really touching.

whudduplex:

irene-j0y:
I remember my trip two years ago, to San Francisco. I took a cab to this bridge while my sister was on a conference call.
I stood there for about two hours, looking down, people watching, and wondering how far down the water was.
A girl sat next to me, and asked me, “You’re not going to jump„ are you?”
I smiled and reassured her I wasn’t. That I was just a tourist. 
She then said, “You look a lot like my sister. I’m sorry, I don’t mean to make you uncomfortable. But I had to ask, can I hug you? You just look so much like her.”
I felt awkward at first, but then I realized. “She jumped?”
This girl’s face just crumpled, and she started crying. I hugged her, without a second thought, and for some reason I apologized. Not sure what else I could say.
She goes, “Those were the last words she ever spoke to me.”
And I will never forget this girl, her name was Ariana.
^^ this gave me the chills. &lt;3

whudduplex:

irene-j0y:

I remember my trip two years ago, to San Francisco. I took a cab to this bridge while my sister was on a conference call.

I stood there for about two hours, looking down, people watching, and wondering how far down the water was.

A girl sat next to me, and asked me, “You’re not going to jump„ are you?”

I smiled and reassured her I wasn’t. That I was just a tourist. 

She then said, “You look a lot like my sister. I’m sorry, I don’t mean to make you uncomfortable. But I had to ask, can I hug you? You just look so much like her.”

I felt awkward at first, but then I realized. “She jumped?”

This girl’s face just crumpled, and she started crying. I hugged her, without a second thought, and for some reason I apologized. Not sure what else I could say.

She goes, “Those were the last words she ever spoke to me.”

And I will never forget this girl, her name was Ariana.

^^ this gave me the chills. <3

(Source: fuckfuckfuck-)

(Source: miss-melancholy)

So, why are the funniest people the most depressed?

bserk:

“Humor is a common defense mechanism. Some funny people like to make themselves and others laugh because it keeps them from crying. It distracts people from the real issues and pokes fun at things to minimize the impact. Albeit temporarily.”

mindovermatterzine:

This list of UK-based mental health contacts is printed in the zine, but I want it here too (click to make larger). If you would like a transcript, please message me and I can sort that out.

There’s some great support networks out there. People do want to hear from you, and they do want to try to help. 

Get your copy of the zine here for £2.